Where are you hiding?
This is something I’m starting to ask myself again. My journey to allow myself to be seen is far from over as I find myself still hiding.
You see... Hiding is easy.
When you’re hidden you don’t have to face what people might think.
When you’re hidden you don’t run the risk of making mistakes.
When you’re hidden you don’t have to worry.
When you’re hidden, you’re safe.
But when you’re hidden..
You’re hidden from your dreams.
You’re hidden from your miracles.
You’re hidden from what’s literally meant for you.
When you’re hidden, you’re not only hidden from the bad.. you’re hidden from the good too!
I’ve noticed recently that I’ve been posting a lot less, I haven’t been sharing as much on my stories, and I’ve rarely been going live on Facebook... Yes, its true that I’m in a season of reflection and reassessing what is truly aligned with my soul. But no, that doesn’t mean I can’t share and be seen during the process.
The truth is... There’s a part of me that’s still hiding. A part of me wants to stay hidden.
My soul, however, knows that’s not what’s meant to be. My soul knows what I’m here to do will not be achieved by hiding. And babies, I’m here to spark massive change and shift us into higher dimensions.. I am needed! If I wasn’t, I wouldn’t be here. (Same goes for you too! 😘) So on this full moon, I respectfully command the Universe show me all the ways I’m still hiding... from myself and from the world.
It might feel safer to hide, but when it comes to being seen... the risk is worth the reward.
It is safe to be seen.
I am worthy of being seen.
I see myself for all that I am. & so it motherfucking is! 🙏🏼✨💙
Tell me if any of this sounds familiar to you…
As a young girl, I saw incompetence.
People navigating the world so blatantly unaware of what the heck they were doing.
So I stepped up.
I saw things in a different way.
I was a leader and couldn’t bare to see the rest of the world doing things inefficiently.
There were times I didn’t feel safe.
I knew better, or felt I did, than those who were taking care of me.
I felt I knew better than the ones that were supposed to protect me.
It was like, if I let go there wouldn’t be anyone there to catch me.
So I became my own safety net.
I protected myself.
I didn’t let go; I held on tighter.
I assumed responsibility for things that were way above my head.
I learned to be an adult way before I learned how to be a child.
It’s almost like I skipped the childhood stage.
Ultimately, I sacrificed my own childhood in order to feel safe.
I didn’t allow myself to have fun.
I didn’t allow myself to let go.
I learned responsibility and control meant safety.
I became a rule follower.
I did things by the book.
I got things done.
I was the perfect child, by most people’s standards.
Until I wasn’t anymore.
The responsibility became overwhelming.
The expectations people set on me became too much to live up to.
It became expected, rather than appreciated.
I began to resent it.
So eventually… I rebelled.
I’ve operated at both ends of the spectrum.
Fully responsible when I was way too young.
Absolutely irresponsible when I “should have known better”
I’ve had an unhealthy relationship with responsibility… And as a result, an unhealthy relationship with my own power.
Assuming responsibility is assuming your power.
Being responsible is being empowered.
The two go hand in hand.
A healthy relationship with responsibility is a healthy relationship with power.
It means knowing that you don’t have to do it all alone, you don’t have to do it perfectly, but you are ready, willing and capable of handling what you need to in order to step into success.
It’s taken me a long while to understand this dynamic.
It’s taken me a long while to heal my relationship with responsibility and power. [ continued in the comments ⬇️ ]
I'm just wondering if any of this resonates for you.... Do you feel like you don’t know who you are without a certain activity?
Do you feel or have you felt like you can’t get out from under your habits?
Do you feel like you’re spinning in circles and can’t seem to gain any traction?
If you answered yes....
I feel you.. I was you.. I am you.
When we partake in a certain activity for so long, it’s so hard to know ourselves outside of it.
I remember when I quit smoking cigarettes.. I had no idea who this new version of myself was.
Who was I without a cigarette?
How would I drive without a cigarette?
What would I do without my cigarettes?
I went through a full blown identity crisis.
I held on to cigarettes way longer than I wanted to out of FEAR of not knowing who I was without them.
Letting go of that addiction totally changed my life.
It was a step towards freeing myself.
Since then, I’ve come to notice how addictions work within our physical & energy bodies. And I still work to free myself from the habits I've subconsciously created!
Our addictions keep us numb. Numbness keeps us safe.
When we’re numb we don’t have to feel the icky feelings.
But what numbness also does, it dulls out the good feelings!
When we're addicted, or in the cycle of habitual unconscious behaviors, we're not living fully. We're being ruled by and defined by these activities and/or substances that we've allowed to run the show.
There’s so much more you can become addicted to and numb out with than we’re lead to believe.
If you’re ready to learn more about this and alchemize your addictions, habits and patterns; check out the Amethyst Addiction Alchemy Masterclass & Meditation!
Grab your replay from the link in my bio [s h o p] or comment below and I’ll personally send it to you! 🔮💙
I'm just wondering if any of this resonates for you.... Do you feel like you don’t know who you are without a certain activity?
Do you feel or have you felt like you can’t get out from under your habits?
Do you feel like you’re spinning in circles and can’t seem to gain any traction?
If you answered yes....
I feel you.. I was you.. I am you.
When we partake in a certain activity for so long, it’s so hard to know ourselves outside of it.
I remember when I quit smoking cigarettes.. I had no idea who this new version of myself was.
Who was I without a cigarette?
How would I drive without a cigarette?
What would I do without my cigarettes?
I went through a full blown identity crisis.
I held on to cigarettes way longer than I wanted to out of FEAR of not knowing who I was without them.
Letting go of that addiction totally changed my life.
It was a step towards freeing myself.
Since then, I’ve come to notice how addictions work within our physical & energy bodies. And I still work to free myself from the habits I've subconsciously created!
Our addictions keep us numb. Numbness keeps us safe.
When we’re numb we don’t have to feel the icky feelings.
But what numbness also does, it dulls out the good feelings!
When we're addicted, or in the cycle of habitual unconscious behaviors, we're not living fully. We're being ruled by and defined by these activities and/or substances that we've allowed to run the show.
There’s so much more you can become addicted to and numb out with than we’re lead to believe.
You're invited to join me for Amethyst Addiction Alchemy Masterclass & Meditation; where we will take a look at addictions, from the obvious to the more subtle, and how we can begin to alchemize, transmute and let go of what’s keeping us down.
Masterclass & Meditation details:
Sunday 7.7 @ 1pm EST online via Zoom
If you can’t make it live, a replay will be available!
In this masterclass we’ll be exploring:
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Look back...
On the first half of the year,
On where you were this time last year,
On who you were five, ten years ago.
Look back...
And celebrate how far you’ve come!
For me, this past week has been FILLED with REFLECTION. Reflecting on how this time last year I was literally praying for the opportunities I now have. I was wanting so badly to create this life and look, I did it. It’s here.
Of course there’s further I’m going to go... but before I focus on that I’m gonna take a minute to appreciate exactly where I am.
My biz hit a milestone in June and I am so grateful. It was something I had been calling in for months and it finally just fell right into place. And now... it’s up & only up from here!
If you’re also ready to let go of the things that are weighing you down so you can rise up and learn to fly... let’s get you set up for the Amethyst Addiction Alchemy and Healing H.E.R. Masterclass & Meditation VIP early bird bundle! Just shoot me a message to grab the link.. and get ready to change your life!
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Sometimes I forget I wasn’t always the person I am today.
Sometimes I forget that I wasn’t always filled and surrounded by so much light.
Sometimes I forget that I went through periods of dark depression where I totally numbed myself from feeling anything through food, drugs, alcohol, nicotine, busyness, and more.
You see.. my life wasn’t always love and light. There was a lot of emotional trauma that I suppressed for as long as possible. But in doing so, I was also suppressing my joy, my happiness, and my bliss. I was numb to life. Just existing, and definitely not living.
It took me a long time to get from there to here. I went through a lot of trial and error and I even sometimes still catch myself wanting to slip back or hold onto old habits. But I have the tools and understanding now to help me move forward, let go and rise up. And that’s what I’m bringing to you in the Amethyst Addiction Alchemy Masterclass & Meditation.
I’ll be hosting it live, online, next week- Sunday July 7th at 1pm EST.
If you can’t make it live, a replay will be sent out afterwards which you have access to FOR LIFE.
Well be diving into addiction and why we formulate these patterns. We’ll discuss the energetics and we’ll even be healing our addictions during the meditation portion!
I’m so excited to bring this supercharged masterclass and meditation to you so you can begin to completely change your life.
When you sign up by the 6th, you receive an early bird rate! And if you sign up for both the Amethyst Addiction Alchemy and Healing HER Masterclass & Meditation by the 6th, you’ll receive the special early bird VIP bundle which includes a special discount!
Message me now to secure your spot! xo
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Life is meant to be enjoyed.
Life is meant to be lived - F U L L Y !
Life is meant to be felt.
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Have you ever found yourself numbing out through food, drugs, alcohol, social media, television, exercise, etc ?
Have you noticed you’ve tried really hard not to feel the yucky feelings, that you also numbed out the good ones too?!
Yeah.. SAME!
That’s why I created the Amethyst Addiction Alchemy Masterclass & Meditation! I’m hosting this ONLINE next Sunday - July 7th @ 1pm EST - and if you can’t make it live, a replay will be available!
Inside this masterclass & meditation we’ll be diving deep into addiction and habits- how and why we create them and when they become detrimental to us living our best lives. We’ll be healing the core wounds attached to addiction, the physical symptoms of addiction and the energetic ties to our addictions.
This is going to be a SUPERCHARGED healing experience you don’t want to miss.
If you register by the 6th - that’s this Saturday - you receive the early bird rate! And if you sign up for this masterclass & meditation, as well as the Healing HER masterclass & meditation I’m bringing to you later in the month, you receive a super special VIP early bird rate!! Message me now to grab the link to register!
xoxo. Love. Light. Lisa. 💙
